Slamming Doors, Summer 2000

I watch the sun rise every day

Then watch the night come and

Fade away into a new day

All without you

Makes me wonder about all the controversy 

Between you and I find myself silent in a sigh

I begin to realize that there's 

Much more to it than just simple differences

Maybe we were just victims of circumstances

The anger I see in you is anger I have felt too

Trying to go about life forgetting and

With all life's frustrating turns

We try not to care

About the haunting past we both share

Just to move on and move away,

Further and further from the 

Bedroom closet and a broken down mother

With tears and shattered mirrors that

Lay about the empty space

Sadness and anger written all over your face

Even today I see it in your eyes and

It reminds me of that time

So maybe this is why I stay away,

Don't want to remember all the sad days

I'm sorry big brother, I just want to 

Get past all the memories, but

Please know I love you and always will and

One day,

My healing will come along with yours and

Life will be new,

Without slamming doors

Slamming Doors II

Winter 2013

I woke up this morning, and

The first thought that came to my mind

Was this poem I wrote back then

When I was searching my soul

For understanding

Feeling God's love and remembering

Letting the Great Healer heal me

A few years later, 

You let God into your heart and

Happily, you accepted a fresh start

I felt, perhaps, this poem 

Played a role in your journey

Then somewhere along the way

You lost hope, you lost control

You hurt your wife, your children

The slamming doors kept swinging and

You made a choice to free them

And yourself, perhaps, to find healing

You so desperately needed 

Oh Big Brother, 

I respect your decision

To let the door slam one last time

Though I don't think you realized

You weren't the monster you thought you were

For we all suffer without you, and would gladly

Open the door and let you back in